What’s most important?

Recently I have taken the time to think about what matters to me the most. Every year around this time I tend to be hard on myself. I isolate. I pull out my New Years Resolution list. Everything on the list is never fully completed. It never fails that I feel disappointed in myself, and I anxiously try to think of a plan to retract myself. No more of this!

These last few weeks I begin to ask the Lord to help me focus on what is important. I have come to a place in prayer where I desire for him to reveal to me what “HE” feels is important for my life. Often what he feels, and what I feel are very different . There are things he desires for me, and there are things that I want (Isaiah 55:8).  To be honest.. I often find myself torn between the two. When I was trained as a counselor, we were challenged and reminded daily to examine our intentions. Why do I feel this way? Why do I desire these things? What is driving my actions? What is my heart revealing? Why I am acting this way? We push our clients to think through these ideas. These person centered thoughts have become ingrained into the fiber of who I am. There is not one single day that I am not reflecting on these things. As a result, time and time again God humbles me and reveals my impure and selfish intentions. Amazingly this process has caused me to be more sensitive, and more understanding to others then I can ever imagine. But the downside is this.. I focus so much on myself and the intentions of others, that I forget to think about God and his intentions towards me. Do not be mistaken… The thoughts and plans you have for yourself will NEVER be better than the plans that God has towards you. The more I pursue life for myself, the further from Christ I will be. My desire is to fill up my thoughts of God, in the place I would normally place myself. My desire is to forfeit my will, and change my behavior. He demands and deserves to be the center of my thoughts. I cant help but to wish that I spent more time this year searching why God feels the way he does, instead of why I feel the way I do. What is his plan for me, instead of my own goals and desires. God your will, not my own.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

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5 thoughts on “What’s most important?

  1. This is so catalytic for me to not focus on my wants but stay focused on his plan for my life, thank you lady bria for your example of righteousness. 😇

  2. I find myself thinking in the same manner & we forget sometimes to redirect our thoughts in God way & direction. Not the easinstructions thing to do when we have our own plans goals and life mapped out. But, lately I have been trying to be diligent in redirectingyour decisions & asking what is it that God wants.

  3. Love this post! I have also been confronted with the same questions. I’m learning that living out HIS purpose for me brings me to places and areas in my life that I could have never imagined by myself.
    Jesus take the wheel, is said many times, but how many people actually live those words daily?
    I’m excited for you and your journey. Just remember to get back on track everytime you take a slight detour!

    – @originalgersh

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